January 2011
62 posts
親屬
Fuck you for crushing my dreams.
Fuck you for telling me i’ll get no where.
Fuck you for moving away.
Fuck you for keeping them from me.
Fuck you for making us so damn private.
Fuck you for for not letting me go.
Fuck you for being racist.
Fuck you for trying to control who my friends are.
Fuck you for wondering why i lie.
Fuck you for forgetting about me.
Fuck you for not...
Subconcious
First a faceless girl standing in front of the water. The next day a faceless girl running towards the water. Finally a faceless girl sinking in the water. Drowning.
“You never loved me. You don’t destroy the people you love.”
Amigos
We always have each others backs when it comes to other people. But when it comes to each other we rely on not-so-subtle hints. Aka tumblr. We have no form of communication. We need to have a get together where not everything is a joke. We need to start telling to truth and stop hiding behind our ever fading smiles.
Une Copine
You are the only one that ever asks, the only one who ever cares, the only one that ever discusses, the only one that ever trys to relate. I love you.
Disorders
They are not funny. They should not be taken lightly. It sickens me how you take this as almost a joke. They are serious matters. They make the feeling of shame come alive, not the urge to make a public announcement. It saddens me the way you are going about this. Maybe it’s a cry for help, i sure as hell don’t know. I just know that they aren’t funny, you shouldn’t be...
““I didn’t eat for three days so I could be lovely.”
That is no way...”
– (via shelly-bynum)
The Winter I'll turn Pretty
I have braces that i’ll be getting off soon. Oncethey’re gone i’ll magically have my self-esteem back. I will finally be pretty. I’ll stop being quite so awkward. I’ll actually take a beautiful picture. Everytime a camera comes out i’ll stop being too scared to be in it. I’ll know how to make my face look okay. I my looks will actually come up to...
If i said it a million times, it still wouldn't...
I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I’m...
Oh.
Today I was with you. I closed my eyes and for a split second all the smells came rushing back. I panicked. I was scared. I was almost reduced to tears. I felt so helpless. I had the overwhelming urge to run away. It was so stupid. Nothing even happened. Afterwards I felt guilty. You two are nothing alike. It’s unfair. These feelings better go away.
Mama
I know I’m 16 and all but right now i really need you. I feel like you being gone at this time is an even worse punishment. I know it’s good and all that you get a week to cool off and relax but i’d rather have you here screaming at me then go through this on my own. I need you to be here telling me it’s okay. I need you to comfort me. I’ve never felt like a worse...
Label Me What You Like
Okay so this whole drama is getting out of hand. There are too many, highly unlikely rumors flying around. Half of them make zero sense if you actually think about it. Anyways people need to get a new topic because frankly I’m getting bored of it. I’m sick of people talking about me and my friends. I’m exhausted of people trying to get me to tell them what happened. The facts are...
Test Me
I dare you.
“Use the talents that you posses, for the woods would be a very silent place if...”
“When something bad happens you have 3 choices: You can let it define you, let it...”
Don't ask for pity you don't want
I’m sorry but everything is getting out of hand. Everything just seems like a big deal in high school but it’s really not. Why does everything seem like the end of the world? Personally I’m only concerned about things that will affect the long run. I usually am pretty laid back person. The reason I’m not a huge fan of drugs is that it destroys the connections our brains...
Last Word
At least I didn’t stalk everything you’ve ever done on the Internet. You could have easily messaged me and not put my name in your blog. Or you could have told me those things from the start. Whatever. You are easily provoked. Stop making MY relationship about YOU. Fuck you. Okay bye.
P.p.s.
Get your own titles! You don’t know what that post was about.
I've gotten too good at manipulation
So I guess you’re still reading this. He has never once struck me. He apologizes all the time. I know he lies all the time. I can also recognize it. Me and him don’t “do anything”. He is just a voice on the phone. It’s understanding, comforting, and seemingly loving, but a voice none the less. You are also being quite the hypocrite, bitching at me and “showing...
“Despite everything, I believe people really are good at heart.”
Facebook Statuses
I use lyrics as my status way too often. They express my feelings without me having to use my own words. Not because I don’t have any, but because I’m scared. I’m scared that someone will see into my head and know just how fucked up and chaotic it really is in there.
P.s.
Don’t bitch about someone bitching. Especially when she was just standing up for her friend.
Frosty, Voldemort, and the other Two.
The other night I realized just how great they are. They stayed with me holding me hair, braiding it when I was helpless. You gave up your sweatshirt when I was upset. It might have been gross but you did it for me anyways. I don’t think you realize just how much that meant to me. Then the other one, you are so funny and let me whine and cry to you. You always see the positive side in any...
To the girl who used to be my best friend
Just because you don’t have hair doesn’t mean you can criticize other peoples. Just because we don’t care and actually go out and do shit doesn’t mean you have to be a bitch. So go ahead and sit at home reading your stupid fantasy books, only dreaming about life while we’re out living it. Go ahead and judge our actions and habits because there is no way in hell...
Never Again
so yesterday from what I can remember, I did some things I’m not proud of. I don’t you, my best friend to look down on me. Don’t me I’m better than that because obviously I’m not. Anyways I shouldn’t go into detail. I have one to many scratches though.
Done
i just simply stated what I thought. I wasn’t contradicting but you took it personally.
As I'm writing this
we are talking about your experience on ‘shrooms. Scratch that YOU are talking. I am just saying “Uh huh” and “yeah”. I am completely ignoring you and you don’t even notice. Oh just noticed you changed to something about 8 pounds and C drinking more than everyone. Conversation is at 13:03. Still not listening. Please shut up.
Arguing over tumblr
i’m not saying it’s not where you’ll be th happiest. I’m saying in this day and age people have low-self esteems and have trouble becoming who they already are. Even adults get on the that kick of “finding themselves”. All the pressure of being skinny and pretty makes us feel bad about ourselves. Think, how many people do you know who are completely themselves...
I disagree
The image hardest to become, is your own.
Things I Wish You Knew 2
1. You frustrate me to no end, yet I can’t get away from you. The attraction I have towards you is unending. We have a sick addiction to each other. We are very abusive towards eachother but better than any medicine at the same time. You are my reality check and I love you.
P.s. You’re right how our song should be Erase Me.
2. I really wish I knew what went on inside your head....
Curiosity...
may have killed the cat, but I ain’t no damn pussy.
Weight is but a number
my mom doesn’t believe in scales. I like it.
Thanks so much
i just realized that by the things you’ve said, by the things I’ve read, most people see me in a whole different light than I see myself. And I like it.
:)
I wish I cared.
Dreams, Memories and nothing more
i hate when something is wrong but I don’t know what. I hate when I feel so bad about myself but I don’t know why. Sometimes my brain gets a little too crazy and I want out. It’s hard for me to live in reality. I dream and I hope. When I realize one dream is unattainable, I change it. I need to stop getting so side tracked. For example this post just took a complete turn. Fuck....
Hey bitches
if you don’t like what I have to say, DON’T READ IT!
Dammit
i have all these stories to tell you, I even type them out. Then I remember I can’t press send. I tried deleting your number. I forgot I had it memorized. So I lay here and i think of all the things I can’t say. I gave it my best shot. As you probably already know I gave in. I bet you’re getting way too much enjoyment out of this, of knowing that you got under my skin. Oh well I...
I showed you
You made me cry so i wiped my mascara on your stuff. Ha!
tumblrbot asked: WHERE WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT ON YOUR PLANET?
Memories
“Just two more bites then we can leave, bigger bites.” I want to go back to dancing in an empty parking lot, sitting at Thatcher park, driving around with no destination. I wanna see again all those trips to jack in the box because no matter what, we’d always end up there. I want to be under those stars, curled beneath that blanket, just sitting and watching that beautiful water....